August 31, 2012
Mi familia,
So I mentioned it was a tough few days as a DL. By the time you get this letter though, I pray and I hope that things will be smooth sailing once again.
When I finished my conversation with Bro Washburn, the first counselor in the branch presidency, I was encouraged that everything will work out for the best as I continue to lead through an example of obedience, and when necessary offer verbal correction. That night I got back to the apartment with only 12 minutes to get in bed by 10:30. My companions and the English Elders assured me there was no need to rush and that it would be acceptable to go to bed later due to my added meetings and responsibilities as DL. But, I simply stated that 10:30 was bedtime, and that because I wanted to be obedient, 10:30 would be when I got in bed. My example of obedience seemed like wasted effort though because the Elders ended up talking 'til a little after 1:00 a.m.
The next day, my companions and I talked about our lack of commitment to bedtime. They didn't agree with me that staying up joking around 'til super late was a problem. And I must admit, it probably wouldn't seem like a problem to me either if it weren't for the fact that I have such a strong belief in the principle that as we are obedient, we will receive the help and blessings from the Lord that we need most. Additionally, nightly bedtime and obedience to that 10:30 lights out/quiet time schedule is one that is stressed and emphasized in my leadership meetings. I was disappointed that my companions had no desire to commit with me to get to bed on time, but I was comforted by the conversation I had from the night before with Bro Washburn. So, I fully expected to once again be the only Elder in my room observing bedtime.
But as we entered our room that night, we were met by the English Elder's Branch President. Apparently he had been receiving several complaints from Elders in his branch, and the security here at the MTC about how loud our room has been getting at night. The English Elder's Branch President had given his Elders a big time talking to. It was apparent by the tears in their eyes that the talk was one of a serious nature. Then he turned towards us and explained (if it can be called that) how ashamed we should be for not living up to the holiness of our calling as missionaries of the Lord. But then I was surprised when he turned toward me and said, "I understand Elder Ostler that you have not been a participator in this. Thank you for your obedience."
Apparently, one of the English Elders had told him that not every Elder in the room was out of line. I am grateful that this Elder felt the need to stand up for me, but I was concerned that this compliment of my obedience would drive a rift between me and my companions. I would have almost rather taken the chastisement right along with my companions. But alas, that was not to be.
This Branch President was full of righteous correction and true love for us Elders. He didn't sugar coat things. He bluntly told those who were in the wrong that he expected a change. But despite the harshness of his correction, I could sense that he really did love us. He left us with a challenge to be better and rise up to the holy nature of our call to be missionaries.
When he had left, there was a true change of heart among the Elders of my room. More so than simply being scared of the threats, I know that every Elder had a desire to change.
The English Elders apologized for the poor example they had set for us younger, newer, Elders. They also apologized to me for not being respectful and supportive of my desire to be obedient. My companions also apologized to me for their lack of support, and we committed as a companionship to live in obedience. The lights went out on time that night and quiet time was observed. In fact the lights actually went out at 10:20.
This sudden and true change of heart reminded me of the experience of Alma the Younger's call to repentance from an angel of the Lord. I truly look at that branch president as an angel of the Lord, an answer to prayer.
The next morning, I notified my branch president and his counselors of the previous night's experience. I reported of the sudden change of heart and my belief that this change was permanent. My desire to report this to the branch presidency was based on the fact that I didn't want them to have anymore cause for concern over our District. But, later that night, around 8:00, our district received word that transfers were being made. Elder R left my companionship and joined the companionship of the other Guatemalan Elders. This change of companions also meant that Elder M and myself had to trade rooms with the Guatemalan Elders.
This companionship change/transfer took me completely by surprise. It was not one of the possible options for correction that the branch presidency had shared with me. We had discussed several different options, but that definitely was not one of them.
This transfer was not something that the District liked. In fact, there was not a good attitude about it. I feel like the person that it is hardest on though, is Elder M because he had built such a strong friendship with Elder R. Even though he is not happy with this change, I have full confidence that this decision by the branch presidency was one that came after much thought, and prayer. I hope that Elder M allows our companionship relationship to grow closer, but right now, he is a little closed off towards me. So, I've got some work to do in order to show him that even though I have to answer to our branch presidency and zone leaders regarding that status of our district, that I am still an ok guy.
It truly is an uncomfortable position to be in as one who has to answer to my leaders and report on each member of my district to our leaders. While I don't like having to be "that guy", I feel the Lord's hand in my life helping me be bold and courageous.
Well, on a different note, we went to the temple today! It was so awesome. The spirit was so strong and peaceful. The peace I felt in the temple was exactly the break I needed from the stresses of my week. It was wonderful.
But by far, my favorite part of the day was the walk to the temple. As we left the MTC campus and stepped outside the gate, I saw Jackson! Oh that was a sweet moment. It was so wonderful to see such an awesome and wonderful cousin. It really brightened up my day! Just so awesome.
Well, time for me to go. Studying Spanish is next on my docket.
I love and appreciate the never-ending support of my family. Please know that I love and pray for you too.
Your one and only,
Elder Ostler
